I don't write about my work, because if I do, my employment contract says my employer owns it, and I don't want them to claim ownership of Travel Penguin. This is my flightless waterfowl.
It has been a challenging time. I have been dealing with some difficult and delicate budget and personnel issues, and we are reorganizing our workspace, moving people around. One challenge was a pure surprise - something I thought I had resolved for this year- and things changed that were beyond my influence or control. One is a personal issue for a colleague that I can't do what would be best for the person and comply with "policy," and while I am flexible I keep being reminded that I need to comply with policy. One is a long term issue that has been put off for years, that I thought I was going to be able to pass off to my replacement when I retire, but the "surprise" is forcing painful decisions. There will be tears.
I thought about retiring early, walking away and making it someone else's problem. Or deciding now is the time to claim my health is to fragile to handle this.
I agreed to take on this responsibility, leadership trusted me to do the job, it is time suck it up and do it. The tough parts of the job, come along with the rewarding parts of the job. There are few jobs that only bring the pleasure and rewarding parts, without the hard parts. I can't think of one. The only jobs I have ever had that had no hard parts, also had no rewarding parts unless you count $9 an hour as a reward. If it was only about the money, I'd stop tomorrow.
I have been working for others for something over 40 years. I don't remember when, or for sure who it was that told me this, I was moaning about how difficult something was, and my boss simply said,
"If it was easy, I could hire anyone to do it.
It isn't, and that is why I hired you."
They trusted me to be able to do this, it is time to honor that trust.