I am not sure why, but lately I feel like I am going in circles, struggling with what to say, even with being kind. Life gets like this from time to time. I fear that I get so tied up with the moment, that I forget that life goes on.
I have written a couple of professional items recently, that I am happy with. One of them started out much more controversial, and was toned down. As much as I would like to upset some apple carts, the finished product has a better balance. Common ground is in the middle, and common ground is where progress happens.
I am thinking more and more about retirement. A part of me wants to hang on as an outside advocate for a couple of years after I retire, saying things that might upset apple carts, another part of me sees those who have retired and not faded quietly into the sunset and wonders if they will ever allow new ideas, new voices to be heard. I don't want to be that person. My goal was never legacy, it was simply to make a difference during my time, if I am remembered, I hope it is for good things I have done.
I have finally committed to stepping back from an outside professional organization. There was a dust-up a year ago that ended in me resigning from the board. I continued on some committee work, and we kept doing the same things and expecting different outcomes. I finally said, I am not a part of the solution, I might be part of the problem, I am done.
The Eagle above. These photos were taken a couple of weeks ago. It was a pretty morning. I had seen one eagle at the nest. I went to the car, opened the top, and this one was circling overhead. I grabbed the camera out of the cup holder between the seats and started snapping photos of the eagle circling, hunting overhead. It has been a pretty week, the trees are blooming, starting to leaf, the first wildflowers are starting to open.