I have noticed over the last decade that the last couple of weeks in August, are often a weird time for me. I notice it now, but it is probably a longer term behaviour pattern dating back to childhood. The end of August was peak harvest season on the funny farm, a tense time when our fortunes, good or bad, for the year were revealed. It was back to school season, change of routine, new teachers, new classes, new challenges. Work on the harvest would kick into high gear at the same time school was starting, working 7 days a week until it was all in the barrel in late September or early October. And it is also my birthday season.
Acknowledging that this is a weird time of the year for me helps - but does not entirely settle the sense of being unsettled.
Add to that this year some expensive car repairs - I hate spending money on car repairs, and it took almost 48 hours for the shop to tell me what was wrong and what it was going to cost to fix. Assuming the parts arrive I should get the little convertible back, and be able to put the top down late Tuesday or sometime on Wednesday. I look forward to a long drive out to Mt Vernon and back with the wind blowing in what is left of my hair. (The top had not worked in several months.)
Today should be fun, I am meeting an old friend for a long chatty lunch and maybe a little retail therapy. We have not had a chance to sit and ramble on for a few years. Lots has happened in both of our lives since the last time.
Acknowledging and talking or writing about how I am feeling, helps me. Knowing what works for me, and doing it, is good. I should be back to my less stressed status within a few days.
I should find a way to divert myself during the last couple of weeks in August, to change this long term behaviour pattern.
There is a word used in England, funk. You seem to be in a bit of a funk, although I am not sure if that's really the correct word. I am sure you will soon recover, and a lazy lunch will help.
ReplyDeleteFunk is a good word
DeleteThose childhood patterns come back to haunt and are hard to shake. You’ll find a way.
ReplyDeleteAnd a haunt in my photo for the day.
DeleteIt's unsettling in and of itself how long these old behaviours and feelings last long past their original establishment.
ReplyDeleteEven now, as I slide down the latter half of my life I still feel like August is a time of change because of going back to school.
ReplyDeleteAs for car troubles loathe them, especially the expensive ones. But I'm suall will be forgotten as you fly down the road, top down!