Some days, I wish I had become a craftsman, a house painter, a cabinet maker, or a brick mason. It would be nice to look back at the end of the day and see what I had accomplished as a material thing.
One thing I miss from my days working for homebuilding companies was seeing vacant land transformed into neighborhoods. The timeline was months or years, but you can go back and drive through decades later and see what we accomplished.
Some days I wish I had started to write, seriously write, earlier in my life. At this point I have no desire to put the work into a book, I do a chapter here or there, even those I need to learn to say no-thank-you to. I am glad I am doing the writing I am doing. In some circles I am making a difference. I hope to be able to continue for a few more years.
Some days I wish I had overcome my fears of the unknown sooner. I passed on opportunities for change, that would have changed the course of my life. But if I had done that, I would not be here now, doing what I do. Jump and the net will appear.
Some days I wish others had told me, or I had listened when they told me, sooner in life that I was brighter than a sack of rocks. That I could do learn it, do it, if I took the time and put in the effort. Education changed me as a person, I hope it never ends.
We all have twisted and convoluted paths in life. Mine is no different. I didn't follow some grand plan that was decided on when I was 15. But here I am, and Some Days, Every Day, I am glad for where I am.
I’m with you. Some moments I wonder what if, but I realize any change to my past would have changed my present. And my present is with SG. Wouldn’t change that for anything.
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DeleteTo force yourself to do something can be a great success, but you have to remember you are fighting against the essence of your character. I was never work ambitious and I don't regret it.
ReplyDeleteThere were a few years when my life was all about work and money, and burn out. In my second career I have focussed on work that I found valuable, that made me happy. I took a huge leap of faith in the middle of it, and it worked.
DeleteI've often had thoughts of "what if" when different situations arise.
ReplyDeleteYou are living surrounded by beauty as a result to the path you have chosen,
Delete🥰 Reading this I suddenly realized how much less I play "what if" these days. Hmmmmm... I think I might be verging on contentment. 😘
ReplyDeleteKeep that thought going,
DeleteMy feelings on this topic: If you don't regret where you are, don't regret how you got there. While I do the occasional "what if" about my life, I would not make a single change and risk nit being where I am now, missing out on meeting my husband or having my dogs or a career that has taken care of me (despite its challenges.)
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Very much agree
DeleteIf reincarnation exists, maybe you can do all that in your NEXT life/lives!
ReplyDeleteMy father use to say that if reincarnation exists, he wanted to come back as his sister's cat.
DeleteI would never change the past because then who knows where I'd be right now and I love this life.
ReplyDeleteBut, I'm with Debra ... reincarnation is the answer.
Perfect just the way we are
DeleteWhenever I catch myself going into the past at all the what-ifs and road-not-taken, I pause to take a few breaths and pull my energies back into the present.
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